Breaking Free

" I want to break free......I want to break free....God knows I want to break free...."
-cheesy song from the 80's but hey, it gets my point across

"And I'm free....free falling..."
-one of the songs from Jerry Maguire

exactly one week from dealing with the inconsiderate buffoon, i can finally say i have broken free. it was a vicious cyle that needed to end and will not go away by simply ignoring it so i decided to face it like a woman.

to my close friends who have known the vicious cycle i got into, they'll ask how is this one different from the other times i broke free. there's a BIG difference - i no longer love the guy. did i tell him that? YES. how did he take it? not too well. do i feel guilty? OF COURSE NOT. he passed up toooooo many chances. being who he is (inconsiderate jerk) he even tried to turn it around by saying im doing this because i found a replacement guy. i just couldnt help but roll my eyes and scream at him.

when i was talking with jem, she told me that maybe i was picking out the wrong guys and now i totally agree with her. i tend to think that all men are the same. but then again i've only been with three guys which ended up in three bad relationships. should i know the difference? YES. coz with age should come wisdom....wisdom that helps you make good decisions.

Breathe by Blu Cantrell - My Song for the Moment

You say you love,
say you love me
But you’re never there for me, yeah, mmm...hmm...
You’ll be cryin’, slowly dyin’
When I decide to leave, oh, oh
All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don’t we wake up
And see
When love hurts
It won’t work
Maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
You’re only lonely when your homey
Ain’t got a ride or no loot, yeah, uh-huh
Then comes the dramaS
ome other girl is claimin’ she’s goin’ out with you,hmm...hmm...

All we do is make up
Then break up
Why don’t we wake up
And see
When love hurts
It won’t work
Maybe we need some time alone
We need to let it breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe (Uh...huh...)
Breathe
Summer, spring, winter and fall
I realize love don’t love me anymore
I’m still walkin’ out that door
Waitin’ for a cure
I wish that you could love me more
And give me what I’m lookin’ for
You used to be the one I adore
But now it seems I’m just not sure
Maybe we need some time alone
So we can just breathe